Happy New Year!

Well here it is, 2016 has arrived and I hope you all did something memorable to see in the New Year.

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Every year I get a feeling about what type of year it’s going to be. To some extent I believe that you can premeditate this, but to another extent I highly believe that your gut will always tell you what lies ahead, well not detail for detail but enough to know whether you need to gear up for battle or simply enjoy life for what it is (Always strive for the latter … regardless).  

A few years ago I decided to stop making huge New Years resolutions on lists that were as long as my arm because trying to achieve all of those things was just too unrealistic. Instead, what I did was keep it really simple and set a life mantra to ‘do what makes you happy and when it no longer makes you happy… stop and move on’.

So far, this has served me well and has helped keep a lot of things in perspective. This simple mantra also helped me to pay more attention to the things that make me happy and how I can manifest that happiness to grow in a positive way. But it has also helped me to identify the things, people and circumstances that make me unhappy and this in itself has been liberating beyond belief!

The amount of unnecessary bullshit I have been able to cut out, avoid and foresee has been life changing and has saved me tonnes of wasted time, energy and emotion.

Whatever resolutions, goals and target you do or don’t set for 2016, I hope that you all have an amazing 365 and that you are able to let go of any fears, situations and even people that have  held you back or kept you down in the past and that you are ready to receive all the love, happiness and success that you deserve for the year ahead!

Happy New Year lovebugs and thank you so much for supporting For The Love of Moi in 2015.

FYI - My gut tells me that 2016 is going to be a gooden! 

Love Sara. xxx

Monday Motivation

Happy Monday lovers!

I hope you are all well and have a lovely weekend.

By now I can imagine that you’re all in the festive mood and have been for some time. Well until last week for me it didn’t quite feel like Christmas time at all.

Spending the build up to crimbo in Lisbon has been a great experience as I have managed to escape the madness and decorations on steroids that I became accustomed to whilst living in the UK and despite working in customer service for one of the UK biggest online fashion retailers, I have also managed to keep my sanity.  

However, today I am flying home for to spend the Christmas with my family and I have to say that the little elf that lives inside of me is ready to come out and play!

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For me Christmas isn’t about a religious celebration (because I’m not really a conventional religious person.) Christmas is about a time that you spend with the people you love the most, to eat, drink and be merry. But most importantly to celebrate and show appreciation for one another.

When it comes to family , yes we may want to kill each other at times and we may not always see eye to eye but… it’s Christmas “... the most wonderful time of the year” so put aside your differences, break out the board games, pop some bubbly and enjoy and be present in the moment of Crimbo!

Have an amazing Christmas lovebugs! I hope that Father Christmas brings you everything that you asked for.

Love Sara. xxx

5 Things I learned In 2015

It’s that time of year yet again where an entire year has passed and it’s time to reflect on all the good, bad and ugly that has happened in the past (almost 365 days)

This year I can say that a lot has felt good but a lot has also felt wrong, or for a better choice of word I should say that a lot has felt unfamiliar.

But despite how unfamiliar or uncomfortable things have felt I pushed through because I knew there was a bigger picture on the other side of it all.

So now that I’m on the other side... well at least I think I am, here are my key takeaways that 2015 has taught me...

1.         Courage

This year I did the bravest thing I think I have done to date, after struggling with anxiety coming to terms with where it was coming from, I woke up one morning and decided that it was time for a change. So I booked a one way flight to my favourite city and started over.

I left my family, my friends a job that I adored and every comfort that I had ever know. I stepped so far outside of my comfort zone that it threw me to the point where I didn’t recognise myself, but despite how hard I found it and at time still find it, I am so happy and proud that I found the courage to move on from what no longer served me or helped me to grow in the way I needed.

2.            Family and Friends

Moving someplace new to start over alone was really tough in the beginning. It wasn’t until a few weeks in that I realised that I was physically Completely alone.

Don’t get me wrong I’m an Aquarius so I’m pretty fine in my own company, but too much of one thing is never good for anybody.

Being here alone and starting over has taught me to value the relationships I have at home with family and friend and also the new relationship I have built since being here. Because despite living a plane ride apart, we still love and support each other just the same. They are still the people I call to share my good news with and they are still the people who help keep me together when I am down.

3.            Letting go of clutter

Literally and metaphorically!

I seriously was a few hand bags away from becoming an official bag lady!

For years I’ve had this idea that I would save all of my absolutely fabulous dresses, bags and shoes for my unborn daughter who would of course be the exact same size as me and would undoubtedly have the same taste.

At some point I had to get real and realise that I was holding on to a bunch of stuff that I had no use for especially, with no kids even in the pipeline!

As I started getting rid of a lot of this clutter, I realised that I needed to do the same with a lot of the mental and emotional baggage that I had been holding on to. There was no sense in keeping what has passed and no longer served me because it was simply taking up space for new possibilities.

4.            Self appreciation

This is something that I am still learning how to do. It sounds pretty simple right? Well when you live in a  world that encourages people to care about the lives of other people more than your own and to constantly try and Keep up with the Kardashians never mind the Jones, you forget how important it is to simply keep up and balanced with yourself.

Learning to say no to people and learning to say yes to yourself as well as to trust your instincts is one of the most important things that you can ever do for yourself, but it’s also one of the hardest.

Saying no to others doesn’t make you selfish and doesn’t mean that you don’t care, it just means that you understand the importance of treating yourself with the love, respect and kindness that we so readily give to others. Afterall, if we can’t do these things for ourselves who are we to expect it from anyone else.

5.            Sacrifice

In comparison to the lives of others, I’ve never really had to sacrifice much, I’ve always have a great family, friends, a roof over my head, food on the table, more clothes and shoes than one person can have and so far have travelled to over 20 countries.

Quitting a job I loved and that allowed me to have multiple holidays a year, not having my family and friends living around the corner from me and having to find the willpower to walk past ZARA on a daily basis and fight the temptation to go inside and buy myself something pretty, are all luxuries that I have had to sacrifice for the past 6 months. Small sacrifices in the grand scheme of things, but big huge sacrifices to a girl who hasn’t had to sacrifice much in life so far.

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Making these sacrifices has taught me to be grateful for the things I do have and to live in the moment, rather than focus on the things I don’t have.

This year has been a true year of lessons some much harder than others but all as valuable as each other.

Overall I have learned to be thankful for what I have as well as what I don’t have; to accept things and people for who and what they are; not to have too many expectations of others and to explore self-love.

I hope you were able to take something away from my 2015 takeaways?

Feel free to share what you’re best 2015 takeaways have been.

Love Sara. xxx  

Monday Motivation

Happy Monday Lovers!

So a few months ago there was this photo that was all over the internet and newspapers about this lovely and cute little old lady simply living in the moment at a film premier in the States.

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The world became obsessed (for a short while) with the fact that while all the other people in the photo were busy capturing the moment on the smart phones, this little old lady didn’t give a rats arse about taking photos at all because she was more than happy capturing everything she needed at that time with her eyes.

Today we have become so obsessed with taking instant pictures and sharing them with the world that we have forgotten that sometimes an image simply can't do any justice to what is happening right in front of us.

Some moments aren’t meant to be captured by a smartphone camera or even an SLR. Some moments are meant to be lived so that you can feel whatever it is that you are supposed to feel in that moment and take it with you.

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This week instead of whipping out your phone when you see something amazing, take the time to enjoy it and observe how it make you feel.

But if you happen to bump into say… Beyoncé or your ultimate idol this week then I think it’s safe to say that you need to make sure you snap that shit as we will all want proof of that moment!

Have a great week y’all!

Love Sara. xxx

Monday Motivation

As we get older life becomes more chaotic the more we start to discover who we are in this world. Some of us leave home travel the world looking for adventure and self-discovery while some are able to find all that they are and need right at home.

But as chaotic and as challenging as life can become one thing should always remain the same... Family.

Not everyone in this world is fortunate to be born into an amazing family but everyone has the freedom to create a family that they are proud to be part of.

If you look up the word family in the dictionary you will see a range of meanings referring to parents and their children, single parents as well as marriage. While all of these definitions are true I believe that friends can also become family and hold as much and sometimes even more value than the family that you were born into.

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After moving away almost 6 months ago I value my family more than ever and I know how lucky I am to have them, and that includes my friends and their families who have become members of my family over the years.

This week take some time to love and appreciate your family for all their beauty and all their flaws too because let’s face it, no family is perfect but they are always there for us whenever we need them no matter where we may be in the world.

Have a great week lovers xxx

Love Sara. xxxxx

Monday Motivation

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Hey there Lovebugs!

I hope you all had a fab weekend and are looking forward to the week ahead.

Question - Does your mind ever run a thousand miles an hour generating idea after idea of the things you want to do, have or be? Well mine does and because of this one of the many things that I have managed learn about myself is that I have a very overactive imagination!

Don’t get me wrong this has its advantages, as it keeps me on my toes, but sometimes I get so caught up in it all and that I accidentally exhaust myself mentally, physically and emotionally.

There is nothing wrong with being ambitious, driven, determined and all that good stuff, but it’s important to remember that ‘You can do anything, but not everything’ .

This quote regularly keeps me in check as it’s a reminded of my talents and what I am capable of, but it also encourages me to prioritise by what I want the most and what is realistic, to what I can take on at the time.  

So if you find yourself overwhelmed with amazing ideas or even by the request of others, take a moment stop and remind yourself that you are more capable of anything but that doesn’t mean that you should burn yourself out trying to achieve it all at once.

Take your time with what’s most important to you and have a great week me darlings!

Love Sara. xxx

Monday Motivation

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This can happen to the best of us at times. Losing myself is a place that I feel like I visit too often these days, but in my moments of clarity I remember that when I feel like I’ve lost the girl that I used to be, or am unsure of who I am or what I want these days, I remember that it’s ok to have these feelings because I am just shedding the skin of what is no longer needed, taking what I have learned and what I’m still learning, and am evolving into the person I’m supposed to be for the next chapter of my life.

Yes feeling like you are losing yourself on the regular can be, scary, frustrating, lonely and bloody awful, but the key to losing yourself from time to time is making sure that all of those good ass friends and family that love you as much as the air they breathe are by your side physically, emotionally or in my case virtually, to remind you how bloody awesome, talented, beautiful and loved you are in those moments when you don’t know how to remind yourself! And with that... you will never truly lose yourself all the way because these magnificent lovers we call family and friends will never let you!

Have a great week love bugs and remember, it’s normal and fine to lose your shit from time to time... just don’t lose it forever! 

Love Sara. xxx

Monday Motivation

The mind is a powerful thing.

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where you have started with one negative thought and before you knew it, you had become overwhelmed with emotions and not necessarily the good kind?

Like I said the mind id a powerful thing and if you give too much power to your thoughts especially the negative ones you can easily end up in a places that feel emotionally and mentally draining. But on the flip side of that, if you start to think more positively you will find that you will experience emotions that feel much more energising and happy which will inspire you to hold on to those feelings for as long as you can.

Staying in a positive frame of mind all day everyday is, well, at least for me... impossible. Simply because shit happens in life and you have to go through the (e)-motions to get to the other side.

But as silly of as difficult as it may sound to ‘train your mind to see the good in everything’, it’s actually one of the best things that you can do. Trust me on this one!

By doing this, eventually you’ll realise that the things that were once big issues causing you stress, anger and heartache are actually not worth the hassle.

It will help you to put things in to perspective about who and what is important and who and what’s not. Without realising it, training your mind to ‘think happy thoughts’ (yep, just like peter pan) will open your mind and your world to things you never imagined. (Ok so you won’t be able to fly your way back to Never Never Land, but I assure you there are plenty other things you’ll experience with your feet planted firmly on the ground.)

Happy Monday Lovebugs! Have a great week and remember to think happy thoughts!

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Love Sara. xx

Inspired Interior Design

One of the many careers that I think I am supposed to have is as an interior designer! (I say one of the many because I struggle to stick to with one thing for long periods of time, for example some days I want to be Beyonce and other days I want to be Project manager.) I digress!

Anyway back to interior design, ever since I was a little one I’ve always loved beautiful homes and always dreamt about the type of home I would have as an adult and raise my imaginary family in. I even remember telling my aunt once when she moved house not to have any nets or blinds in her bay windows as ‘rich people with style’ simply don’t do nets or blinds! To my surprise she actually listened to me and yes her bay windows looked amazing, however my belief on the nets and blinds situation has changed slightly over the years.

Before moving to Lisbon I became slightly obsessed with interior design, Pinterest became my best friend and pinning images of beautiful home became my top hobby!

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Since moving, I think that my obsession has excelled to a whole new level!

I have always loved the old architecture in this city and I love strolling around and admiring the buildings and tile work here, especially the buildings that look like they need a good face lift, as I have all kinds of fantasies about what I would do with them! (I told you my obsession was at a whole new level.)

 

Recently I’ve noticed that my interest in beautiful interior and exterior design isn’t just about the fact that beautiful materialist things make me feel all happy inside, I’ve realised that it’s really about creating a space that represents me and makes me feel comfortable and relaxed after a hard day out in the wild west.

Most of us live in a world where we work stuck behind a desk for hours with crazy deadlines, so it’s important that at the end of long, hard day that you are able to go home to place that helps you to unwind, where you can leave all the stress from the office and the outside world at the door. This is why when decorating your home there are so many things to consider, like what colours you want to use.

For some, this is simply about choosing the colour they like but for others, it can be about how the colours make them feel and also what they mean. For example, yellow is a colour associated with sunshine, happiness and Joy, has a warming effect and can stimulate mental activity. Where blue is a colour that is associated with depth and stability, as well as trust, loyalty, confidence and faith to name a few and is also known for being beneficial to the mind and body. 

Then there are the choices of décor, Modern or country; retro or classic or my favourite... YOU. 

Have you ever been to someone’s home for the first time and said to them “your home is very... you”? Well I have and I’ve noticed that people often see it as an insult than a compliment.  But I assure you it’s a compliment, because the way I see it is that your home should always represent you! It’s where you live its where you share some of the most meaningful and intimate moments of your life, its where you’re supposed to feel safe and also where you can just let it all hang out, literally! I know I do. Seriously, my neighbours across the way regularly get a free lingerie show!

Feeling breezy is essential to life, the less time you take to de-stress or just take a breather can really affect your creativity and productivity. Have you ever noticed that you get your best kickass ideas when your vibe is set on chill? Relaxation is also a way of just having some quality you time and giving yourself a break to allow yourself to breathe and also reward yourself for working so hard. Making your home your into a haven is one way to start.

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It doesn’t have to cost much as places like IKEA are great for designing you home on a budget. But as much as we LOVE Ikea there are also so many other ways to create the home of your dreams on a smaller budget, like going to flea markets and second hands shops. The things you find there are brilliant and you’ll have less chance of seeing the same things in other people’s homes. Also use websites like Freecycle, GumTree, Ebay and Debop and if you like to travel use this as an opportunity to take home so beautiful pieces of local produce and culture and make them part of your home.

However you decide to decorate and design your home just remember to fill it with colours and things that make you happy and that help you to feel relaxed. But above all, make sure that you have a home that you feel proud of that represents who you are!

Love Sara. xxxx

Do More of What Makes You Happy

From the age of around 14 to 21 I had that hobby that without realising became my life, called dance.

Growing up in the 90’s and 00’s where R&B lived before it died, I spent a lot of time tuned into The Box music channel and MTV BASE trying to learn the routines to any Aaliyah or Ginuwine, Missy Elliot, Mya music videos. (For all of you noughties kids, sorry but you missed out!)

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Anywho through a friend I came across a local street dance group which I joined and before I knew it that was all I cared about. I was part of this dance group for around 6 years which have honestly been some of the best years of my life! Not only had I found a passion that I loved but this was where I also met some of my best friends who over the years have become family.

Overtime naturally things changed and the passion and dreams that I had of becoming a professional dancer (Beyonces backing dancer to be specific) seemed to start to disappear, which resulted in my dancing hobby that I had once loved so much coming to an end until now.

When I first arrived in Portugal I had so much time on my hands I became really overwhelmed with the thought of what I would do with it! So one day after a skype chat with my bestie she suggested I find a good dance school. Coincidently a couple weeks before I’d met a really friendly girl who’d told me about a dance school called Jazzy, so I decided to check it out.

Now I’ve been to a few dance studios over the years but this one has to be my favourite by far! Not only are their facilities top notch, the vibe is really nice. Some studios attract dancers with a competitive edge and serious egos which are really off putting when you’re just there to dance and enjoy, however I am yet to experience any of that at Jazzy!

They have an amazing and diverse selection of classes and the teachers are brilliant and super friendly which is a plus when you rock up to a class solo with limited language skills.

After my first class I was hooked! I’m not going to lie, I was a bit rusty as let’s be real, it’s been a while since I’ve had to learn a routine. But I’m pretty impressed with how fast I managed to get back into it all.

In the space of a month I’ve gone from having a 1 day a week membership to having a 2 day a week membership and if I’m honest my dancing feet are two stepping towards and unlimited pass! I had no idea how much I missed this part of my life until after that first class. Since joining Jazzy I’ve pushed myself out of my comfort zone and I no longer stand at the back of the class out of sight in case I get the steps wrong! I have tried different styles of dance like Afro Tribal, Contemporary, Hip Hop, Pop dance, Kuduro and my favourite Dancehall with Souljah Fighters WWHHOOOYYYY!     

2 out of 3 Souljah Fighters

(Yes those are sweat patches you can see! I work hard in those classes!)

For me, dancing is a form of therapy as well as a way to explore and express other parts of my feelings and personality. I’ve had days when I’ve entered the dance studio feeling defeated by the world and its bullshit but yet I always leave the feeling notorious and ready to face whatever is thrown in my path.

As we get older and gain more and more responsibilities we tend to have less time for some the things that once made us happy. Most of us are of an age now where our priorities in life have changed and yes sometimes that means sacrificing hobbies for other things that make us happy like, love, children, family or career goals, but as important as all of those things are, making sure you make time for that special hobby that understands you like no other hobby or living person can is equally as important.

We share so many other aspects of our lives with others, sometimes it’s important to be a little selfish and have something that is just ours, where we can switch off and have a different kind of focus.
Having a hobby no matter how big or small is great way to be able to recharge your energy for the other areas of your life that demand more of you.

Reconnect with old hobbies or even find new ones that will give you some time out from your day to day reality. It could be anything from going for a run, starting a new class or even teaching new class. Whatever your hobby of choice may be, make time and go for it! You never know, it may even inspire you beyond your wildest dreams.

Before you go check out this amazing tribute video to the Missy Elliot who owned the late 90’s and 00’s era with her creative sound and choreography and inspired countless dance crews across the world to turn their dance hobby into something so much more! (And also helped Adidas make a killing!)

Enjoy :) 

Love Sara

                

I Get By With A Little Help From Yoga

Yoga was always something that I’d always wanted to do however my initial reason for trying it out over 10 years ago at the infamous Pineapple Studios are very different to the reasons why I love it today.

Despite the relaxing effect it had on me and my friend in that studio all those years ago (we fell asleep!), I never quite cottoned on to the power and empowerment of yoga, I just saw it as something that was good for me to do during my days as a dancer to help keep me limber and strong, which is probably why I never kept it up as I completely missed the point of what yoga is really about.

However over the past few years I have found myself questioning so many different aspects of life and paying a lot more attention to the way I respond to life. So as a way of exploring this and finding balance and inner peace, in January 2014 as one of my new year’s resolutions I vowed to start my yoga journey and it all began with a £5 class which I had no idea would eventually play such a huge role of support in my life.  

Sadly only after a few weeks the class was cancelled and for a while I tried out a few other classes but I never quite connected the way that I did with my first instructor.

By the summer I felt like I had started to fall apart as my tank was on empty and I needed to slow down and as a result of overworking and neglecting myself in more ways than one I began to experience a lot of anxiety. I knew that what I was experiencing was simply a mind over matter situation and I was determined to restore myself in a holistic way. So I contacted my instructor and gave her the rundown on what was happening and booked myself in for a private session, but before diving straight in for a yoga session we agreed that I we would have a Reiki session that would help to understand where my issues were coming from and what areas we needed to focus on. This was and still is the most powerful spiritual healing experience I have ever had. It was the first time in what had felt like months that my mind found peace, even if it was only for a few seconds at a time because let me tell you, those few seconds felt like heaven (or at least what I imagine heaven would feel like.)

These sessions were the start of gaining back my control, managing and understanding my mind and emotions at a deeper level. Since then I have continued with my yoga and meditation practice and have had some really great experiences. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve been to some yoga classes where I’ve left and at the end said to myself “what the fuck was that all about”, and I’ve been to some where my body has had a better work out than my mind and spirit, but I’ve also been to classes that have left me in tears, or have unblocked whatever may have been preventing me from feeling grateful, happy, loved or free. My latest experience involved being turned on during a session!! Which I assure you, was as much as a surprise to me as  I think may be to you! The instructor did have on some insanely little tight shorts and he did also had a beautiful voice, but after having a quick chat with my instructor back home she assured me that it was completely normal and that he (the instructor) clearly acted as catalyst for whatever was going on in my body. (Horny hormones! HA!! Can’t believe I just wrote that!) Lol, no seriously yoga has all kinds of ways of awakening your subconscious feelings, energies and emotions. Especially at times when you least expect it, you can experience all kinds of emotions.

Yoga isn’t for everyone but for me it one of my top wellbeing activities that keeps me centred and grounded in this crazy western world. Since moving to Lisbon I’ve been exploring different classes to find my right match while I’m here which I think may have finally found. What makes it even sweeter is that it’s outdoors and it's free!

If you’re in Lisbon and would love to do some yoga check out the video below!

Or if you’re at home and don’t have the time to get to a class but really want to have some kickass guided practice, check out Yoga with Adrienne! She is amazing and I regularly do her sessions via YouTube. She’s fun as has a great way of making you feel at ease with whatever level of yoga you’re at. She also has a great 30 Daysof Yoga programme which I’ve found as great way to start the day.

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Enjoy and  feel free to share any yoga stories or tips!

Love Sara. xx

Finding a New Path

Can you believe that my first month in Lisbon has already gone?

So how did it go? – Well to be completely honest the first 2 weeks were pretty bad as I experienced the worst homesickness I’ve ever experienced in my life. I’ve always been one to get homesick but this time it felt like it was never going end which made it even worse. Immediately I stated making plans for my return home to England and how I would just carry on with my life as it was. For a while this was comforting but then after returning home for a week for a family event and spending time talking really openly with my family and two besties about what I was feeling, I began to remember all the reasons why I made the choice to move to Lisbon and give myself a break and live life in a new place for a while.

Taking myself out of my comfort zone and starting over the way I did was such huge thing to do and I clearly underestimated the impact that it would have on me, as I had gone from having a super busy job, friends, family, and social life, to having no job, plenty of time and just me myself and I to keep myself company. But as awful as those few weeks were, I got over them (thank God) and was able to start putting things into perspective, like the fact I am living the my favourite city in the world with endless possibilities!

Now a full month in I can say that moving here for the summer (or maybe longer who knows) was definitely the right thing for me to do because although I change my mind as often as Rihanna changes her hair, being here and having time alone has given me the chance to start thinking more about what I want from this new blank chapter of life, what’s most important and how I can achieve it. And yes, it’s likely that I will change my mind a gazillion times before I get to the place that I’m supposed to be, but I’m happy to say that this is a start, and for the first time in a while, I think I may be on the path that was designed just for me.

Love Sara. xx

Heeding The Signs

Hello there love bugs!

I hope you’re all well and happy?

It has been a long time since I have posted anything on here and my, my, my, has a lot changed since my last post on 29 November 2014! (What a shameful time gap!)

If you are a regular reader of For The Love of Moi, you would’ve noticed that in the posts leading up to the last one in November last year, FTLOM took a turn in the type of content that was being shared. I assure you that this was not planned but was merely a reflection of what was going on in my life at that time.

So to give you the short version, here’s the skinny on what led to the changes in the content and my life.

Now as some of you may remember in 2013 I managed to get the job of my dreams that I had been working so hard for! Don’t get me wrong it was no high flying job with the salary to match, but was that foot in the door that I had wanted and was enough for me. However the more involved I became in my job the more my body was trying to tell me to slow down, but as much as I was learning about heeding the signs of life, I sure as hell wasn’t heeding these signs until one day at our busiest time of the year on my way to work I was involved in a car crash which should have been more than enough to make me or anyone for that matter stop and say, “Ok universe, I’ve heard you loud and clear! From this day forth I vow to put my health first”, but no that wasn’t enough for little ol’ me now was it, as the very next day I was back at my laptop, (even if it was from my living room whilst propped up by ever cushion in the room.)

It wasn’t until I had a full blown panic attack in the canteen whilst at work with embarrassing visions flashing through my mind of being airlifted out of the campus and taken to the nearest hospital that I realised that I was suffering from anxiety which the doctors failed to pick up on when I told them I was having breathing problems to which their solution was to put me on steroid based medication!!!

So after going back to the doctor and telling them that the problem was not asthma, but was in fact anxiety (imagine having to tell your doctor what they should have told you! A rant for another day) they told me the best thing anyone could have ever told me at that stage of my anxiety, even if it wasn’t what I wanted to hear … which went something like this; ‘Sara, you have two options, you can either find a way of coping or you can find a new job’!

Fast forward one year and this is where I’m at; I worked through a lot of my anxiety with the support of my family, friends, colleagues who have become friends and an amazing yoga teacher and realised that there were a lot of things that needed to change in my life which started with the way that I was treating myself and the way that I approached life.

I found ways of managing my workload as well as more time for myself, I realised that there were other factors that contributed to my anxiety which I am still learning how to deal with, but the most important thing that I have learned so far, is the importance of the connection with myself which I somehow managed to lose along the way. However since this realisation I have managed to restore and continue to build this connection every single day, and yes, even on the shit days, because we all have them no matter how zen we deem ourselves to be.

As for the job, I called it a day and followed my heart to rekindle an old flame. I packed my bags, left on jet plane and to be honest, I’m not too sure when I’ll be back again!

But in mean time I plan to keep sharing my experiences and discoveries with you all, which will include the good, the bad and the hella ugly, as I know I’m not alone on this amazing rollercoaster we call life and what’s an experience if you’re not able to share it? Even if it’s only through a blog.

Love Sara. xxx